Have Sword - Will Travel

It's possible that I haven't blogged in sometime because honestly, I don't know if I have anything interesting to say. Or at least something that you would give a living bird dropping about.

I've been wrestling with direction lately. I finally at a point in my life where I'm at a steady rhythm. And it scares me.

I've helped build a solid Student Ministry system of learning, growing, sharing and caring.
I've also developed a decent music ministry that can handle the basics of the worship genre well. (and yes it's a genre.... settle down)

But now what?
I've got to tell yuh, if I don't have a massive undertaking to confront I'm often left feeling empty or in the very least dull.

Now I'm working the through the drag of everyday ministry and living and I'm left wanting more.
Sure there are more battles here, but I'm not sure that I'm the man for that fight.

Even with my B.S. in Business Comm with a focus on Organizational Leadership, I just can't seem to muster up the gumption or wading through the crud of politics and influence when I'm not positioned to lend my voice to the issues at hand. Right now, if I speak up I would probably be labeled as an arrogant idealistic maverick. (too many adjectives, but work with me here)

Nearly every book on men I've read has described an internal need to have a cause to fight for.
what they don't tell you is a practical way to position yourself for the battle you're meant for.

I guess this is where the need of a mentor can play so deeply into who we are. I need somebody who has done when I hope to do and has the time/patience to help me develop a mirror or compass for the next battle.

I've taught teens on following the Christ is living as the Christ. Now I simply await the next move. Do I move the knight or the rook? And what move will best help add to the already amazing army of believers.

Where do I go God? I have a sword, but the target is lost in my immaturity and ignorance.